One man was asked, “What did you gain by regularly praying to God?” The other man replied, “Nothing. But let me tell you what I lost; ego, anger, greed, depression, insecurity, and fear.”
Somebody somewhere is discussing the old you because they don’t have access to the new you. This year was about removing a lot of chairs from the table. Sometimes the answer to our prayers is not in gaining, but in losing. Going back to the beginning. Unlearning. Starting from scratch. When people say "you've changed" or "you're not the same". I hope for the sake of God that you've changed. We didn't come all this way, and work this hard to stay the same.
I don't want to be the same person at forty, that I was at twenty-five. Or be the person I am now, no different from the 'know-it-all', snotty-nosed eighteen year old I was, what seems like a lifetime ago. Our past is what we've been through, not who we are. It has helped mold and shape us, but it does not define us. Ironically, progress usually comes from the barbarians, and there is nothing more stagnant than the philosophy of philosophers and the theology of theologians. I grind, but more importantly I pray. I wake up, take a knee, give thanks and then go get it.
So hustle, grind, work; blood, sweat, tears, spit, dirt. You don’t owe anyone anything, but to yourself — everything. Happiness is an inside job. Nobody is going to hand you the fairy tale happy ending; only you can save you from you. Don't expect people to understand your journey, or destination. There is no beacon, or lighthouse. No green light, or orgastic future eluding us. Pray. Meditate. Use your intuition to recalibrate your moral compass, and follow your star due North to whatever ‘Promise Land’ you envisioned for yourself.
They say, ‘you don’t have to tell a real one how to be one.’ Your family, friends; will come find you and search you out. At this point, It's evolve or die slow. Old ways won’t open new doors. If who you think you know me to be is simply based on who I was a couple year ago — my growth game is strong; I put my pieces back differently. Allow me to reintroduce myself. What a time to be aligned. Bless.